Empower to be Abundant

always give
always accept
see the worth/value of every experience

seeing is being
be the worth/value of every experience
be love
see love

every thing that is happening now is an expression of love
nothing is happening
there is only love

my first memory
is in a hallway going into a movie theater
there are mirrors on the walls and ceiling
my mother is holding my older brother’s hand
on her other side is my dad
I’m above them
she’s pregnant

we are in life’s waiting room
in the hall of mirrors
through the double-doors 11:11 is the theater
in there is a recapitulation
all the broken images come together
all the parts you played, reconciled to one
all the identities fade away until there is only one
one whose face is ever changing

my second memory
is in a living room
my mother is watching tv on the couch
my body to be is playing with toy cars on the floor
i’m hovering above
descending halfway
and then I’m in

there is a personality everywhere, behind everything

at the moment I arrived, my bowels let loose
my dad took me to the bathroom and washed my underwear in the toilet

I turn around and my mom gives me a present saying
“tomorrow is your third birthday, but here’s an early present”

I open it
and it is an action figure
many-faces, from “He-Man”
he has as many faces as we have sides
left, right, middle
masculine, feminine, neutral
on the action doll, one face is reptilian
another is human
and the third one is robotic

so many symbols and messages in these first memories

everything I would ever need to know
when I was younger, and had no access to knowledge, I would meditate to find answers
when I felt everything I knew was a lie, my meditations would reveal the same voice with the same answer every time
“go with what you know”

and that is what i know
there were no thoughts
just being
a pristine quality to everything, like glass
indescribable

my whole life has been a journey of observation
imagine if you could go back and live your life all over again from the time you were 3
knowing everything you knew now
that is what it’s like
since day 1 in this world, a fully mature adult, mentally
but with the detachment of a child
all vedanta, intuited from the beginning
in my adult years, reading volumes and volumes of sanskrit themselves….brought everything back
everything i knew then – was always true
and now i have the words to give it to explain it to anybody
and now i don’t need them
all these words, unnecessary